Tsunami

So many have happened for the past few days. Its rather scary, that so many can happen in just a mere few days. Sigh. How I really wish that it will be like a tsunami. A heavy one, but also a fast one. Unhappiness really set in this few days. I can hardly remain happy. Seriously. I guess that's the real me.

Last year I have to worry about a girl who did the same thing. This year I have to worry about my lil' bro, who did the exact same thing. But its getting serious. I turned to everyone I could. Ask for solution and consequences and I hope you really will change. I ain't trying to take the place of your parents I hope you understand. I may not be your perfect sis. But I'm trying. All I know is I can't give up on you. I can't. I cannot leave you all alone. I know how is it feel to be given up by almost the whole world. But yea, you fell down. By nature I should have let you get up from your original fall position. But it seriously difficult to get up, I know. That's why I'm trying my best to lend you a helping hand. But if you think that I'm a irritant. I'm sorry. I will just stand back and watch. But I'm sorry. I can never ever leave you alone. I'm sorry that I've been a lousy sis. I'm really sorry. But remember, I'll always be there for you. Be it morally or just that me praying for your safety. Be safe.

Cca is a disaster. Its so messy right now. I don't know what we do to deserve this. Its really tiring. Be it quarrels between you and me or she and him. It just doesn't seems to end. Oh God.
I'm tired. Why can't we be like any other happy cca. Why.

How I wished I'm a boy. There will be no distance between friendship. I just don't understand why a boy and a girl can't be an extremely good friend? Why? Why? Just because, its wrong seeing a boy and a girl too close? Its totally illogical. It makes no sense at all.

I really wish that they will let go of me. Let me do whatever I want. Be it piercing, changing of school, lesser curfew. Believe me, one day. If I really break down. I'll just listen nothing to you. I respect you. That's why I listen. Don't make the respect I have for you disappear. Don't.

Life's hard.
All of the bad things come at one go. Even at the most important point of my sec3 year or my family.
Bro's wedding is coming. Everyone is busy preparing. I can't talk to anyone. I need someone to honestly talk everything and anything about. Not just someone who discourages and reprimanded me for everything. Or someone who just doesn't care and kept on playing computer.
MYE's coming. I guess top10 seems like an impossible dream to me now. I'm really troubled. Really. No one seems to understand it at all. I feel damn fucking lonely in the inside.

Yixian & Darrel, thanks.

Happiness

I don't know why. But this few days I'm feeling unhappy. Extremely unhappy.
I'm tired of putting a smile or fake a laughter for people to assume that I'm happy. Seriously.
Its tiring. I don't know why, but I think I'm in love with Hougang Polyclinic. Perhaps due to its quietness.

Oh whatever. Mid year are coming and yes. I would really like to get top 10 in 3E3. Too ambitious?
Yea, I think so too. So I'm gonna try my very very best. I guess there is certain source of motivation behind someone who dropped down?

Its gonna be a long long post. Recently, I've noticed a group of so called friends ya.
I don't even know why he treated them like friends? When they needed help you are expected to go and help them. But think. When you needed help, where are they? Are they even in sight? Seriously if they were my friends I will be so damn disappointed in them but more in myself. Why even bother try to be friends with them. Blame myself. Sigh. Thank God my friends isn't in the least like them.

I've put on weight. I'm gonna go on diet and I mean serious diet. But I seriously doubt if I'm able to do that. Leg's aching. I hope nothing is wrong. sigh. I'm gonna save up. I don't want to be like the past. Have problems with my financial. Financial literacy remember?

Bro's getting married like, next month? Officially on like almost the begining of my MYE papers. Cool eh. Never mind, joining dinner at night. I'm gonna miss my dear brother.

Getting tired of my new phone. Sigh. Should i send it to PS for like the bling bling thing.

This few days I'm able to see who are my real friends and the nature of friends more clearly.
Scary. But yea, its the fact. Confusion. Illusion. Decision. Oh, never mind.

Disappointed in cca? Seriously I think my existence is no longer needed. Hey, try getting a feel of this man. Its no good. My bad? I don't think so. Management is needed. President, you need some actions ya. Remember what we talked about.

I went out with SAY incomplete yesterday. Caught 17 again. I think its nice, meaningful and ya, funny. I agree with what shannon said. It should be labelled as Nc16. Sex scenes again and again.
GRRRRRR. Laughs. Elf talk. :D I almost cried? Ya, go ahead and laugh. But i think its very touching when a dad realise that his daughter have been bullied? Touching. Go watch it! :D
We than went to arcade. Played basketball and the japanese thingy. They are being racist! Lols. Went for lunch beside Jubilee. Stingray! Than off to library and some nothing-better-to-do guy send a message that sends leechek running round the library. Yea, embarrassing. But funny.
Have a very fun time playing swing. Chatted at Mac. Environment there is superb. But everyone kind of began thinking whats on their mind. Didn't get it resolve but at least talk it out. Sigh. Seriously everyone really do have their own problems. I than went home after that. Fell asleep and dinner like midnight? :D

Hello LeeChek here blogging for the owner my love mavis...

11/04/2009

hmmm she got her new phone today. KU990R Viewty(pink)

we both got the same phone le... couple phone... she want buy the shine shine thing de... but must nice nice de.. so i must look for it... so she will try on my phone first before she do it on her own phone...


10/04/2009

yesterday she go ate dim sum with her daddy.. then went to see sofa... omg a cushion cost $95 each... so exp...

i miss my love mavis....